It started with a nagging feeling
Recently, I’ve been building and trying out all sorts of things. Setting up a home server, lining up services, building systems that combine AI and automation. Technically, some pretty interesting stuff came out of it.
But one day, a thought crept in:
“Is turning this into a business really what I want to do?”
Once a system was up and running, my role in it disappeared. The thrill peaked at the moment of completion, and even while operating them, something always felt off. That nagging feeling was always there.
So I consulted Claude
I’ll be honest — it was a conversation with AI that helped me confront this question.
“When do you feel most excited?” it asked. My first answer was obvious: “When I get a new piece of tech to work.” But as we talked, another answer slipped out.
“When something I’ve built surprises someone, moves them, or makes them smile.”
In other words, what I actually craved wasn’t the praise itself — it was the moment when someone else finds the same thing fascinating as I do.
Five drives
As the conversation went on, five core motivations surfaced:
- Curiosity — I want to peek behind how things work
- Expression — I don’t want to keep what I learn locked inside
- Recognition — Honestly, I want people to say “that’s impressive”
- Resonance — I want to hear “oh, that’s cool!” and feel the spark of shared excitement
- Delight — I love it when my knowledge helps someone see the world a little differently
Laid out like this, they form a single loop:
Learn → Translate through my own lens → Share → See someone light up → Want to learn more.
When that cycle is spinning, I feel most like myself.
Sharing
“If you had to put it in one word?” I was asked.
Sharing.
Not “publishing” — that’s too one-directional. Not “teaching” — that implies a hierarchy. Sharing has this effortless quality: “Here, take a look if you’re interested.” That felt right.
It also explained why running automated systems never sat well with me. Simply automating things and keeping them running doesn’t complete the Sharing loop. I need to put things through my own filter, deliver them to someone, and feel the response come back. Without that texture, it seems no amount of technical cleverness can satisfy me.
About this blog
So I’m starting this blog.
This is my place to Share. AI, web technology, automation, home labs, and sometimes introspective pieces like this one. Things I’ve touched, tested, and found interesting — written in my own words.
If any of it sparks something in you, let’s geek out together.